Saturday, December 30, 2017

What I was going through and what you all thought about it

# It's merely for fun reading#

I wore torn jeans for I couldn't afford new ones and yet you all thought I was being a fashion freak.

I ate less because I couldn't afford more to eat yet you all thought I was dieting.

I cried over small emotions for it was enough to initiate the pain I was going through and over flowed my bearing capacity yet you all thought I was emotional.

I swimmed every time in the river for I couldn't afford to have a warm water to take bath yet you all thought I was fond of swimming.

I sang my horrible voice out everytime I felt bore for I couldn't afford to buy a music player to listen to music and yet you all though I loved singing.

I went to school very early on foot for I couldn't afford to go on a taxi and yet you all thought I was money minded.

I worked every vacation to earn some money for my family was too poor to buy me new books and clothing for school yet you all thought I was busy and had no time for roaming with you all.

I didn't join over any school or class picnic for I couldn't ask money from parent to pay for it yet you all thought I was being antisocial.

I don't talk much with you all for i am scared I might fall for all the happiness you all possessed yet you all thought I was being damnless.

I felt bad when I lost my pen for buying new was out of option for me yet you all thought I was crying for such a  silly reason.

I skipped lunch and started doing my homework during every lunch time to stop myself from getting hungry   because I didn't have a container to bring my lunch and yet you all thought I was very hardworking and didn't have time to spare for food also.

I didn't joined school games club not because I wasn't good at any game but because I couldn't afford to buy the dress and shoes needed for it and yet you all though I was a book worm for I joined literacy club.

I wrote this piece for I was utilising my idle mind into something productive and yet you all thought I went through this.

Better to write some thing than keep thinking about useless stuff over and over in our idle mind... Happy reading...

Wednesday, December 27, 2017

Flashback

                                                 
As I am sitting next to Bukhari sipping down my hot suja, a sweet memory just plays itself into my saturated frozen brain due to Haa cold weather;

“Every time I would gaze from my window just to catch a glimpse of her. I wonder if she has any idea how much she means to me, I wonder if she will ever know how I feels about her deep inside my heart and soul. I am not sure how much of love can I hide inside myself, sometimes it feels as if I will explode trying to hide all those beautiful moments I have about her although all those moments are just about her and what she has been doing.

I still remember how I met her for the first time near the Kharpandi Goenpa, I have met many girls in my life but I have never seen someone who is so much into helping others. I still remember you helping that old lady to walk towards the Goenpa. I was there few steps behind you just admiring how carefully and slowly you were helping that old lady. She is in her early 80’s for I have talked with her ever since I joined CST and went to Goenpa  for evening walk, I saw your friends leaving you behind all alone with that old lady.

She just kept on helping that old lady, she took her to that small shop near the Goenpa and made the old lady to sit on the chair. I have seen that old lady couple of times near the Goenpa all alone and never saw anyone helping her once also. I saw that the old lady was happy to be with her for she was so keen on helping that old lady. The last time I saw a smile on her face was when I offered her a cup of tea with hot momo for it was raining that day at the Goenpa. 

Well this time I see that old lady is happier than before when I was helping her, the way she was looking at the old lady drinking that tea really makes me wonder what is running in her mind. I am just amazed how she can smile and keep on helping that old lady although she is just a stranger whom she met by chance near the Kharpandi Goenpa gate. I was there looking at her when she left the old lady at her regular sitting place in front of the Goenpa.
She just smiled at the old lady for last time and went away towards her friends who were all busy taking selfies at the Goenpa.  I just went towards that old lady and as usual I gave her a smile and chatted with her for a while before my friends reached Goenpa from the hostel.


I have met that girl only once but I never thought she will keep an impression on me, even while returning back to my hostel, the way she was helping that old lady kept on playing on my mind. I knew she was one of the students here but I had no idea which field and which year she was.

Since I am first year, I wasn’t at all sure how to find out about her but I know that the only chance I have of meeting her is at Goenpa. I was excited by the thought of meeting her again tomorrow. All I remember is her heart melting smile and her helping nature.

As I head back to my hostel through the shortcut above the Goenpa, I notice a glimpse of her. I carefully act as if I left something at Goenpa and lets my friend to go on their own.

As I lay there near the wall, I can see clearly how much she is happy feeding those newly born puppies. The way she is touching them and padding them one by one, I have noticed those puppies but never dared to go near them for I didn’t want to be attacked by its mother. 

I must say she is brave enough to go there and touch the puppies near its mother. It seems she is a regular visitor for I don’t see any objection from the mother side.

As she pulls out a packet of biscuits and starts to feed them, I get this pinch in my heart. A strange feeling engulfs me, each ticking second sound of my wrist watch was so loud to my dear ears. My eyes wanted to capture her whole image but my brain knew that I was acting like a desperate baby. I somehow convinced myself to let go of this feeling this time and hurry back to hostel.

I am not sure why God favored me because I had no idea I could see her early in the morning, I was just opening my curtain and then there she was with her friend going for breakfast, I could hardly believe myself. A rush of hormone kicked in and within 5 minutes I too was on my way to dining hall from my hostel. There I saw her at the right corner of the dining hall eating her breakfast, since it was early around 7:10 Am, the number of students dining were very less. I sat at the left corner most just to get the perfect view of her.

Since then I have always been looking from my window to see if she is going for breakfast or not, so that I could just get another chance to see her again.”

It gets too hot to sit near Bukhari so I move backward trying to ease myself thereby disrupting the flashback going on in my brain. I surely was into her those days ha ha…

Coming back to the reality, I must say those days were the best days of my life. Love, happiness, crush, admire filled my soul those days. How I wish those moments could be rewind and relive...

Hope it was fun to read… Please bear if any mistakes... Thank you...

Kharpandi Goenpa (Sorry I only know by this name)
Situated over a small hill with spectacular view point.
Just below College of Science and Technology (CST)

Thursday, December 21, 2017

LOVE

It's when you miss her at your busiest hour that you love her not at 1 or 2 am when you are alone...

It's when no matter how angry you are, you always have an ear to listen to her no matter how silly talk it is.

It's when suddenly you miss her for no concrete reasons, looking back at your phone just seeing her name on the contact list gives you a smile, that's love.

It's when you think about her happiness more than your own.

It's when you are scared to lose her although you haven't done anything wrong.

It's when you handover your salary to your wife so that she can manage the house running budget.

It's when little change in her behaviour hurts you alot.

It's when even without being in contact for few days or week won't create any ackwardness when next time you chat with her.

It's when no matter shy guys you are, you always gets a chance to show your true self.

It's when you get the urge to live your life with her not that you can't live without her.

It's when you feel save in her presence.

It's when you feel like irritating her for every little things.

It's when you treat her more like a lady than some mere puppet to have a pleasurable time.

It's when you discuss things with her before doing it.

It's when you feel the important of her opinion on the most important life matters.

It's when you get this intense pain when ever she ignores you.

It's when you place her in your life as a needed person that you love her.

If any more reason are there I am open to opinions la...

It's merely for fun reading... My opinions and what I feel... happy reading 😀😀😀







Wednesday, December 6, 2017

Just pouring out my frustration...

When you feel like everything is going according to plan, life throws you away in such a way that you feel like the decisions you have taken long time back was a mistake. I should have join there, I should have done better research of future scope before going for it and all kinds of thought runs days and nights.

Sometimes you don't want to wake up not because you haven't finished your sleep but because the reality hurts more than one can bear.

When you see you classmates and juniors doing better with their life, you are  here not able to do anything, you have a degree but what's it's value in real life. People judge you by the job you get, if you have no job, you doesnt matter. That's what I feels everytime I go through every painfull day.

Life definitely loves to take lots of tests, preliminary exams and when you reach to the end exam, it kicks you so hard, standing up back seems pointless and meaningless... I am not sure how many of  you went through this and got out but I am just into it and it feels like hell out here, this last 1 years felt like decade.

I reappeared my exam but all in vain, some mistakes happened and i end up losing some marks i guess.

Most of my friend are shock to hear the result, I on the other side felt like my world just collapse and I am being burried under the gravels of my beautifully imagined world.

I didn't ask for, to be a billionaire, nor a first prise in lottery, not even a single penny. All I wanted was; the fruit of my hard work for last 17 years I have used to study hard and reach to this level.

I studied when my friends where busy going for outing, I stayed late night studying when my friend where having dreams.  I worked extra hard for I knew I wasn't born with intelligent they all possessed.

I did all my best and what do I end up with, a degree certificate which has no value unless you get a job. Society who once appreciated for getting a degree now talking bad things behind you.

Those sociaty who always gave you appreciation talk, end up asking why are you wasting your time by not applying for jobs. They have no idea how many times before I went to bed, I have shed tears because there was no vacancy announcement today. With hope there will be tomorrow I sleep and it destroys me when ever vacancies are announced  due to following reasons;

First vacancy is for in-service, who already have a job offered jobs, raining where there is plenty of water.

Second they want experienced candidate when we are not given opportunity from where will we get experience.

Thirdly, they give more importance to viva, some of us are born with shyness and fear of talking openly to some officers. That doesn't mean that we can't do the work, I wonder if communications skills that important than knowledge skills... Maybe they can fix a broken machine or corrupted file with their influencing speech...

This is the end of 1 year I am going through that pain of not knowing what to do, how to do, where to ask for help.

I know everyone will say, "be an entrepreneur, you are an engineer you will get the job just wait, try in private, cooperation. Try outside the country, try with small jobs now and you will get the experience," I know they are telling all this because they care and genuinely wants to help. But sometimes its good to let that person be at peace.

I really appreciate their concern and I want to tell them that it's not that I am not trying... It's just that sometimes rejection from so many companies and jobs puts a barrier into ones thinking capability and destroys your hope.

Have you ever wonder why someone who was so much fun loving suddenly becomes angry man, short tempered, harsh speaking. It's not that they have changed, it's just that world has molded them into something they once fear they would become.

I am not sure what future holds for me,
I am not sure how I am going to face the critism of sociaty,
I am not sure how I can manage to smile my way out of this,
I am not sure will I ever get out of it,
I am not sure for how long my pillows can hide my tears from the world,
I am not sure how long can I keep up with this fake smile and fake acting.
I am not sure how long can I keep this little hope of seeing a bright future.
I am not sure how long will my diary keep up with my emotions brust I scribbled onto it.
I am not sure when will my collapse world be rebuilt.
I am not sure how long can I bear the pain my parents are going through.
I am not sure how I have to bear the pain of knowing my parents are feeling sad although they always encourage me...
I am not sure for how long my mom and dads encouraging will keep me fighting.

All I know is that if you aren't born with luck, no matter how hard you try, you will always fail to conqure your goal or may be the goal I have set for myslef is too high to achieve.

As long as I am here, I will never give up but I would appreciate if sociaty doesn't add to the problm I am already weighing down with. FUNNY how sociaty judges you although you turn deaf ears to them, they always finds a small defect in my method to hurt me...

# This piece isn't meant to hurt anyone la, I am sorry If it offends anyone la.. I always felt good after sharing my thought in my diary and this days since I am trying blogging, I am sharing here...# 

Saturday, December 2, 2017

I promise you (Chapter 4... The final chapter)

Tshering pretends to cough just to make his presence known to Pema, she was still lost in her though why see always  ends up seeing that little boy.

"Hello, remember me. I am Tshering," he said softly. As she looks up to see who he was, she nearly shouts out of surprise, "Azai wai."

He just laughts and brings forth his hand in a gesture to handshake. Pema slowly corrects herself up with an apology.

"You haven't changed a bit,  same all hairstyle, still weird looking and lost in her own dreamy world," he says with a smile on his face.

For a moment she touches her hair and tries to remember her hairstyle at college time. She hardly remembers what types of hairstyle she used to keep those days.

"Really! You still remembers my old hairstyle? It seems someone was keeping eye on me." She says laughingly. As she moves her hand over to cover her mouth, she remembers about the chocolate she bought and hands them over to him.

"What's this?" He questions.

"Its for your little friend who always chases me around," she says with a smile.

"My little friend? Huh... sorry I didn't get you," Tshering said with a surprise tone.

She just looks at him and waits for him to change his statement but finds him totally confused by her statement. Then she continues " I mean the small boy whom you introduced once during college farewell picnic, wait... I have saved that photo in my phone from laptop."

As she shows him the picture, a silent tear falls from his eyes, he gets angry and shouts at her, "I never knew you would make fun of someone who is dead."

On hearing that Pema suddenly moves back and explains him that she has really seen that little boy 3 times already at Haa. She then begs him to tell her what actually happened and how did that little boy died.

Tshering looks at Pema and thinks for a moment before he says, " ok! Then listen. Do you remember after our last exam paper we were suppose to meet near the water tank." She nods and says, "yes I do."

He continues,"when I was waiting for you near the water tank, I received a call from my friend sonam. He called me urgently to come to hospital as his son wanted to see me."

"Ok and then,"she asks him with full attention.

"Well you see, he was suffering from brain tumor and although he was successfully operated, due to some unknown reason he still suffered from severe migraine. No one knew how long he would live and I have known him since I became his father's friend long time ago.

He was so fond of me and always called me as atta. I felt so happy to have a little brother and I would always take time to go and visit him everytime I get a chance. I even brought him at our farewell picnic as he wanted to experience college picnic.

Well when I reached at hospital, he was already shifted to ICU, I couldn't go and meet him so I waited outside the ICU for whole night. At around 3 am, he came to sense and was asking for me, I went inside with a smile I forged upon myself and acted as if nothing was wrong.

He was there still writing his diary, I wonder what he writes there.

He would share all his secrets with me and I told him that there is one last secret I didn't share with him. Although he was in pain he looked at me with a smile and told me, "Its about love right brother."

I was shocked and he kept on smiling and asked me to show him the picture of the person I love. So I took my phone out and showed him your picture. He was very happy and told me that he remembers meeting you at the picnic. He told me," I will call her mathang and brother I will help you get her love."

Although he was sick and he should be worried about himself but he was worried about my love life and wanted to help. I thought of calling you but my phone was out of battery. He wanted to meet you once more but I couldn't come to college to ask you for his condition kept detorating and I was scared that the few moment he have would be my last moment with him. He asked me to bring him a bottle of water and told me to take my own time as he opens his diary to scribble down some words.

When I came back with a bottle of water, I saw my friend crying loudly and his wife was there at the corner lifeless without any emotions, she was neither crying nor shouting. I knew something must have happened and when I rushed near his bed, he was still hugging my phone and he was lifeless. I didn't know what just happened, I couldn't even cry nor shout like his father. I lost the most loved person in my life, I lost my brother. I remembered his last word. "I will call her mathang and brother I will help you get her love."


 I had to stay at his house to help with the rituals. It took nearly a week to complete all the works and when I returned back to college to meet you, my friend told me that you left few hours ago with your parents.

In the process of helping my little brother's death rituals, I misplaced my phone and ended up losing all the contacts I had with you.

As he was still telling the story, Pema couldn't bear it and started crying, she begged him sorry and request him to share her his name.

He couldn't utter his name at first and then after few seconds Tshering said, "Sonam T Dorji, he was a very good boy and very intelligent and he didn't deserve to die so early, he had lots to see in this world. God wasn't fair... God wasn't fair.." He started crying with tears all over his face.

Pema just hugged him and said,"I am not lieing but I really saw him and everytime I saw him, I ended up meeting with you. Now I think I know the reason. He is full filling his promise to you. He said he would help you right, well he is really helping you to meet me."

As Tshering hears this, he just smiles at her with tears on his eyes and requests Pema to show him where he is right now. Pema hesitately points at a house and tells him that she saw him going there. To her astonishment, Tshering looked at her and then goes into that building. Pema also follows him, Tshering goes directly to house no 7 and knocks, Pema cautiously warns Tshering that she only saw that little boy going into the building, which floor, which room she had no idea.

As both of them waits for the door to unlock, a strange cool breeze flows through their body. Pema shivers while Tshering smiles and says, "I know brother, you are trying to make your presence known to us, its ok."

As an when he finishes saying that, the door unlocks and Tshering smiles at the woman who just opens the door, it's non other than the mother of Sonam T Dorji. She smiles back and looks at Pema and hugs hers.

Still unsure what just happened, Pema hesitates to say anything.  Tshering clears his throat and says,"I didn't know you two got transferred to Haa, where is your husband?" Someone just comes out of the kitchen, it's Tshering's friend Sonam.

Sonam also hugs Pema and smiles as he looks back on the picture of his son. "My son, you did it, your promise has been fullfilled," Sonam cries out of happiness.

Sonam continues,"... before you two ask me any question, I want both of you to refer this diary of my son, look at the last page."

When they both opens the last page of the diary, they gets the shock of their life. It reads, "I may leave this body but I promise I will bring my brother and mathang together no matter what, even if it means for me to come back from death, I will do it. Until they are together I won't give up."

Pema gets shiver all over her body, Tshering after hearing his lost brothers last words, fills with sadness and cries out aloud.

Pema and Tshering shares them all the incident that occurred till now and promise them that their son's last wish won't be in vain.

Keeping all the differences aside, Tshering once more proposes Pema, promising to love her even after death. Pema already went through the pain of losing him and she knew that he was the one for her.

As a token of love towards his brother, Tshering laminates his brothers last word and keeps it in his house. Pema prays every day to God to let her have Sonam T Dorji as her son so that she can repay her gratitude to him.

#I hope I did a fair justice to a story# Thank you...






Friday, December 1, 2017

I promise you (Chapter 3)

As Tshering receives the chit, Pema without saying any words walks directly towards the academic block. She neither looks back nor greets anyone she meets on the way. It is unusual for her to act so weird when she is mostly talkative among the cstians. Tshering reads the chit slowly to himself,

"Dear Tshering,

I am not sure how to say it but since it came to this situation, I have no other option but to tell you the truth.

We have known each other from highschool, ended up in same college and now we are nearly completing our course. I must say you have been one of the best person I ever met in my life, you always hold me when even I couldn't hold myself up.

I have been in countless relationships and it feels akward to see you fall for me, I ain't the right girl for you. I am sorry I can't accept your proposal, I know I will regret later about it  but for now lets  do our exam well.

I know it will be hard for you to accept this but sorry I can't accept it, I don't want to lose you. I have lost every person I ever loved.

If for some reason we break up then I will lose you like others. I don't want that to happen, I hope you would understand.

With love
Pema      "

His eyes gets filled with tears, still he tries to smile and neatly folds back the letter and puts it in his wallet.

That letter was like a big blow in his loving heart, he acted normal and hurried to the academic block as it was time for the first period. As he passes by her class, he glances into her class just to find that Pema was already looking at him. He just smiled and pretended as if nothing happened few minutes ago.

Pema could tell that he was hurt, she being the reason, she made up her mind to not meet him before the semester exam ends. Just a week to go for their final semester exam, they both anonymously thought of not seeing each other would be a good decision before the end semester examination.

As usual Pema went to library to study and Tshering went to lab to study. Finally exam ended with both of them not seeing each other for about 3 weeks now.

Since it was few precious last day at college, all the department organised their own way to bit farewell to the final years. Pema was busy with her own department gathering and Tshering too was engaged with the farewell gathering.

It was party all night, even the shyest person came out to live the last moment of college life with songs and dances. Both of them couldn't meet each other that night.

Next morning Tshering requested his friend Dema to call Pema and request her to come meet him near the water tank. As Tshering waits patiently, he receives a call from his friend urgently telling him to come to Phuentsholing hospital as his friend's son wants to see him before he dies.

Tshering was so much attached with his friend's son that he shed tears on the spot and ran towards the gate, he was completely blank to even notice that Pema just smiled at him and waved at him.

Pema was shocked to see that he rushed towards the gate with eyes full of tears and then stopped a taxi and went away. She couldnt believe what just happened. It was the last time she saw Tshering at college. She tried to call his cellphone but all in vain, his phone was switched off.

As she continues to think about what happened that day 7 years ago, she didnt even notice that she has reached her aunt's house.

She tried to lighten herself up, smiled and knocked the door.

As she awaits for the door to open, at the corner of her eyes she feels as if she saw a small boy running away behind the house. Her reflex were quick to response and before she could tell, she was following that image behind the house.

As she reaches at the back of the house, she finds nobody there. She still feels as if that boy is around and keeps on looking around the house. She didn't even notice that she was acting weird in front of her neighbours.

But out of blue, she knew that she would meet Tshering again as every time she met that little boy, she met Tshering.
She wasn't wrong, Tshering's apartment was just few blocks away from her aunt's house. He was on his way towards his apartment, as Pema sits there on a wooden log chair, Tshering sees her and comes directly towards her.



Thursday, November 30, 2017

I promise you (Chapter 2)

Her aunt gets out of the car and helps her load her luggage in the car, all Pema can do was smile back at her aunt and get inside the car. She couldn't sum up the courage to ask her aunt to wait for few minutes for her to talk with Tshering. But again she knew that she doesn't have the right to talk with him after rejecting him for no concrete reasons.

As her aunt starts the car, both Pema and Tshering locks their eye upon each other, Tshering smiles and waves towards her, she feels a deep pain in her heart.

She felt as if for the second time she was losing him. All she could do was just look back at Tshering without showing any emotions.

Her aunt's house was merely 10 minutes drive away yet she felt like it took them nearly an  hour to get there. This was her second time at Haa and she was happy and sad at the same moment.

Happy to be able to meet him and she has a hope of seeing him again. She just got transferred from Phuentsholing. She came with a hope of finding out her chilhood memory of Haa and to be independent.

She was sad with her lack of courage although Tshering made his move first. Although he smiled and waved at her, she didnt even gave a simple gesture of seeing him. She felt how akward he must have felt to not received any gesture from her.

As she sits hear bukhari with a hot cup of suja, she still thinks about what he has been doing all this time, why didnt he even try to contact her for last 7 years.

Was that small boy his son or brother?

Was that lady his wife?

Why did that small boy called her  mathang?

Does he still have feelings for her?

Does he still remembers her like the way she do?...

As many questions kept poping up in her mind, she shook her head again and again.

Her aunt just looked at her and said, "Are you tired? Would you like to sleep a little?"

She just smiled back and said,"I am fine Aanii."

As her aunt shared her stories about how small Pema was when she first came to Haa, Pema was still thinking about what happened 7 years ago.

After his proposal, she didn't get out of her house for next 3 days and neither he asked about it. When they met after 4 days, she just gave him a small chit.

She was not brave enough to express her reason why she can't accept him. So, she wrote a chit explaining the reasons why she can't accept it.

She still remembers those words she used in the letter as she sips down every bit of suja slowly.

As she plans to open her laptop and watch some korean series, the face of the little boy flashes upon her. She is still not sure who he was and why he called her mathang.

She was sure that Tshering has no brother, the identity of the small boy still remained unsolved in her little confused world.

Suddenly she remembers something and she flips around the old pictures in her laptop, as she goes over every photo. She notices a small boy resembling the small boy she met at bus booking.

It was the picture of farewell college picnic, that small boy was sitting next to Tshering, smiling as the photo was taken. Although he was with Tshering in the photo, she doesn't remember anything about him.

As she tries harder to rememeber, she gets a vivid memory of meeting that boy while she was calling Tshering for some work at college picnic.

Finally she concludes in her mind that maybe he is related to Tshering and that the little boy knows her because Tshering might have shared him about her. But she was still wondering why that little boy called her as mathang.

Next day she went to Haa Dzongkhag and gave her appointment letter to the office, luckily the HRO told her to join the next day and take today as a break. On her way back home, she came across the same small boy waving at her from a shop.

At once she recognised him and rushed into the shop only to find that he wasn't there. She thought that she was thinking about that little boy so much, her imagination was taking the troll on her brain. With a confused and shocked state, as she comes out of that shop, she once again meets Tshering, this time near the shop.

It was purely coincidence she thought, coincidence of meeting him everytime she sees that little boy. As usual she couldn't face him and just looked the opposite direction and headed towards the last shop. As she looked back, she saw that he was still there looking at her in disbelieve.

"He must have felt bad, neglected and I am sure he knows the reason why I can't face him,"she said to herself while looking at him after few blocks down the way. As she reached the last shop, she enters there just to escape from his view.

Although she  had no plan to buy anything in the shop, she looked around and ends up buying few bar of chocolates in hope to meeting that little boy and give him. As she was paying the shopkeeper, she felt a sudden gush of cold air on her hand and face. She looked up hoping to see a fan but ended up seeing nothing there.

As she came out of the shop, she looks around to see if Tshering was there. Lucky he was long gone, as she starts to move towards her aunt house,she comes  across the bus station where she met that little boy and Tshering. She again taps back into her memory.

It was raining very heavily that day when Tshering was there waiting for her near the college gate, he smiles at Pema, hoping  to get a reply after waiting for 3 days. He sees that she is feeling very akward and notices it in the way she walks and looks down at the road while handing him a small chit.



I promise you (Chapter 1)

Cold winter with its own blessing and curse blew over the small town of Haa. Hardly any one was noticeable in and around Haa town. Pema with all her luggage just arrived in a bus from Phuentsholing.


With a smile on her face, doubt in her heart she just unloaded the luggage from the bus. As she looks around to see her aunt, a small boy with a cute smile comes near her and wishes her,  "Mathang nan aopha mo."


She gets the shock of her life.


Still unable to digest his words, she just smiles back and says, "Mathang? Ebi mathang ya... Jang mangi na wai."


The small boy just smiles and runs away behind a car where a man is patiently waiting in a car. As she tries to look closely who the man was, a soft voice with a sweet breeze of tone calls from behind her, "Hey! Tshering, come out and help me with this luggage. "


To her astonishment, she saw her childhood friend Tshering coming out of the car, he just smiled at her and went to help the lady who was calling him.


Thousand thoughts ran into her mind, the flash back occurs...


She still remembers the day when he kneeled down and proposed her after being friends for nearly a 7 years. She found herself in a situation where she had to choose between losing him forever or being with him in a new relationship.


She never thought about being more than a bestfriend to him, for he has seen her cry over the breakups for years and always found him to be a consoler for her.


She has been in so many relationships  that she felt awkward to accept or reject his proposal.


He was still on his knees with a red rose and a spark in his eyes. His words were so heavy to digest, he kept on saying why he loved her and why he never found any girl worth going for.


She just smiled at him and asked him for few days time to think over it. He was happy beyond words. He suddenly shouted and jumped  up while tried to control his emotion before saying, "You can take all the time you need, I will be there just for you."


As she looks at him, helping that lady, she whispers to herself, "He hasn't changed a bit, same all Tshering with his fake smile and trying to act cool."


Luaggage was quite heavy, she saw Tshering was having a hard time carrying it towards his car yet he acted as if he was strong.


As he came near her, the same old feelings rushed in, making her feel awkward again to face him after 7 years gap.


She still don't remember how they ended up being so apart. All she remembers was seeing him in tears and after that he just vanished from her life.


She searched him everywhere but no one knew of his whereabout. That day she lost one of the most loved person in her life, she felt lost, alone, uncomplete and most of all she lost a person who has always been there in her ups and downs. She always found him by her side, she regreted for not accepting his proposal.


As he keeps on helping that lady, she just can't believe he is right there in front of her eye.


She felt that this was the best moment to share him what she felt after losing him for last 7 years. As she goes near him, she hears a honk of a car. There she sees her aunt smiling with all her 32 teeth towards her.


Friday, November 24, 2017

A beauty worth dieing for

As the sun slowly hide himself behind a curtain of cloud,
The gush of wind blew over slowly introducing her scent.
Sun was compareless to the brightness she possessed.
The scent so sharp melted down my heart.
Those silky yellow hair moved on its own,
Enchanting all around it to its beauty.

Even the beauty of winter stars were compareless,
Even the beauty of autumn season over the decidious forest were compareless,
To the beauty she was born with.
A beauty solely owned to conqure the heart of every man it encounters.
A beauty worth dieing for.

Her one stare could freeze you in that moment,
Her one look can stop your heart beat,
The way she moves makes you stare at her.
The way she moves her finger through her hair,
You can see it as if you are in a slow motion movie.
There is beauty in everything she does.

And if you ever see someone like her,
A girl of beauty worth dieing for,
A girl whose every moves makes you amazed,
My dear brother, you better go for check up,
Chances are there you are losing it all.
Losing your sense of reality...😂😂😂

Sketched by Kinley Norbu (aka Dpo)

Wednesday, November 22, 2017

Loving the wrong girl

So lost in her mesmerising beauty,
I lay as a puppet in her hand.
Her small reactions meant a world to me.
Loving the wrong girl made me blind.

Blinded to see what actually was happening.
I was being a mere puppet in her hand.
Little did I know how my friends were feeling.
They knew she was playing with me.

They advised me about my wrong choice,
But I was blinded by my own love towards her.
I was just a fool following my own nightmare.
Nightmare I was yet to be introduced with.

Never knew when I became addicted to her.
I started giving her more important,
I hardly gave my friends any time.
I hardly thought about anything else than about her.

Her likes and dislike became mine,
Her happiness became my goal,
She was like a poisoned red wine,
Destroying me by every sip I take of it.

I was losing myself in the process of loving her.
I was sacrificing more than I was gaining out of it.
I was doing it all for i was scared of losing her,
Although I was the only one who was trying to keep it going.

I ended up being exhausted in the relationship.
I have bargin in more than I can take.
It started hampering my academic life.
I can hardly digest exam were near.

It was class 12 examination,
A turning point in my life,
This exam would decide where I would be,
College or be a highschool dropout in life.

Lost between love and career I was,
Decision was needed to be made from my side.
A nightmare was lurking just behind 1 month.
A nightmare of deciding my life with examination.

When the final time comes even our shadow leaves us behind,
She left me for someone who had a job.
She left her school life to get married.
I was left here wondering what a fool I was.

Since time was less I did my best,
I ended up getting just passed.
The nightmare falled upon me,
The nightmare of being nobody in future.

Felt like a plastic bag on a windy day,
Blown away without any known destination.
Seeing my friends go to colleges far away,
Made me sad for I knew I deserved to be with them.

Blessed I was with such a loving family,
They saw a dream for me which I had to conqure.
Although it was hard for my family budget,
I was enrolled in a private school.

This time I was convinced I needed to study hard,
One year at private school was a second chance I got.
A chance to prove myself my worth.
A chance to conqure the dream.

A long awaited dream finally became real.
When I was selected for CST.
Hardwork works like magic if you do it.
A year worth of hardwork beared its fruit.

I never learned how to let it go,
I never knew how to do it again,
I never thought I would also be one.
Now I suffer from Philophobia.

A beautiful word to express,
Express the fear of being in love again.

                            Thank you...

Monday, November 20, 2017

I can see it all

I can see how you are feeling,
Grasping those hairs of yours,
Bitting those lips of yours,
Thousand words running in your mind.
Trying your best to talk with him.

For sadly he seems too damnless,
He has no idea about what you feel.
It's a shame for him not to know.
How much he mean to you.
For he is lucky and unlucky at the same time.

Her reply

I am not sure why you love,
When you know that you will get hurt,
Is it worth going for,
Wasting both time and money.
For just a short happy moment.

I don't know why you love,
For all it gives in return is pain,
Everlasting sorrow and regret.
It takes more than it gives
For a few moments of happiness.

Firstly do what you came to do,
Than may be later go for love.
When one has  job and status,
One can get the one you love.
Why waste your time for now.

I am not saying you not to love,
All I am saying is, its not the right time.
So let's study hard and build out future.
A future both of us will be proud of.
Lets work towards it pintoo.

Frankly saying I am afraid of being in love,
The memory of past still haunts me,
I have known you well to judge you,
You deserve the best one out there,
I have past experience that won't let me.

I am not sure how you will react,
For all I have is a sincere apology;
An apology to try to make up,
An apology I owe you for replying late.
An apology for leaving you where you are now.

If we are meant to be in future,
I will be the luckiest girl out there.
If our path ever comes across each other,
Please don't hesitate to hug me.
For no one has and will ever come so close to me as you.

I still remember the first time I saw you,
You were there near the gate all wet,
Both of us were late for assembly.
I felt a relief that I wasn't alone that day.
We both got a punishment to cut grass,

I knew that you liked me.
I am sorry for not letting you know.
I knew from the very beginning you liked me.
My friend Pema told me about you.
I was scared of being in love again.

I am glad I met someone like you.
The way you cheered me up after every unit test,
Made me feel how lucky I was to have you.
I am surely blessed to have met you.
Thank you for always being there.

By the time you will receive this,
I would be gone by then.
I will pray for our path to cross.
I will pray that your dream comes true.
I will pray that our karma let us Unite.

Love

A word "love" itself is a key,
Key for happiness, sorrow, war and peace.
Love is an uncontrollable feeling
Between two person of any race.

It means to share our happiness,
And divide our sorrowness.
Love doesn't mean to hurt
But means to show our loving heart.

It can create a nice friendship,
And also can destroy a friendship.
It makes us to share our feeling,
And also makes us to be friendly.

A love can join two heart together,
and also can create peace and war.
Love is an uncontrollable feeling,
Which can occur at any given time.

Saturday, November 18, 2017

She made a difference in my world

It was raining very heavily that time
When I was waiting for my friend,
It was getting late for school.
So when my friend came, we ran before I collided.


Collided with a girl so beautiful,
She apologised although it was my fault.
Her voice pierced through my heart,
Rang the bell of so long dead stone heart.


I couldnot stop staring at her although I was running.
Tried my best to capture her whole image.
Seeing her in the same uniform as I am wearing,
Gave me a hope of finding her and meeting her again.


For the second time I saw her next day in a shop.
All I knew was that  I was tempted to go near her,
Hear those heavenly voice again from the angel like her.
It felt warmth deep within my body.


To my astonishment, my classmate felt my weird behaviour.
Came close to me and gave me a look I still remember now.
I dragged her towards the corner of the shop,
Begged her to share me about her new friend.


For the third time we met near the school gate,
This time she was all alone heading towards school.
I too was alone, for we both were late for the assembly.
Later both of us were called to principal office.


Since that incident we have known each other,
Smiled at each other when ever our path crosses by,
I skipped heart beat every time she smiled my way,
Stupid me wants to be more than mere friend to her.


Now that we become familiar to each other,
I would always find a reason  to talk with her.
Slowly we became close to each other.
But fate did not like our closeness.

She wanted only friends but not boyfriend,
So I couldn't express my love towards her.
Time flew by keeping myself loaded with all those love for her.
We became best friend within two years.


Finally when I gathered all the guts to propose her,
It was too late for her to give any reply to me.
Her father got transferred to another Dzongkhag.
I felt so lost that I could hardly believe it.


The thought of being alone to school scared me,
I have became so fond of her that I could hardly bear her absence.
But all I can do was smile at her for her new beginning of life.
It hurts but have to let her go for my own good.


I am not sure how I will handle this situation,
I am not sure how to bid her farewell,
I am not sure will this be our last meeting,
I am not sure will we ever keep in contact hence forth.


All I know is that she made a difference in my world,
All I know is that love can be so painful sometimes.
Unsaid love and untreated wounds will take time to heal.
For now I have long night to think about what to do next.


(It's said that we will never forget our first love but in my case my second uncompleted love made a greater impact on my life.)

I hate it when

I hate it when I am afraid,
Afraid to do what I like.

I hate it when I lose confident,
Lose confident in our love.

I hated it when you left me,
Left me all alone in this town.

I hate it when you lie to me,
Lie to me about your promise.

I hate it when you speak to me,
Speak to me in mobile form far place.

I hate all the above mentioned reasons,
Yet I still love you for you are the one for me.

Friday, November 17, 2017

Miss you

I met you as a schoolmate,
Wanted you as a life mate.
Never told you what I felt
Until it was too late.


You wanted only friends
But I didn't agree.
You never knew what I felt,
Until it was too late for you to accept.


You had to go to other school,
I was left here like a fool.
You never told me why?
Why you never shared what you felt?


You cried when you left me,
But I cried when ever I went to school.
Never knew how important you were
Until it was too late for me.


You may have cried once
But I cried everytime
I think about you,
I really miss you


Yet we will meet again thats a promise


(I wrote this piece when I was in high school... Memories flows in flooding you with everything you once felt while writing this... Feels funny but I am glad I could re-live those moments again...)

Some of the things guy likes about girls

I am sure some of my valued reader would not agree with some of the points mentioned below but since it is written merely for fun purpose, I hope I would be forgiven.

Some of the things guy likes about girls;

1. The way she pretends not to see you when you are around her.

2. The way she plays with small kids making all those funny faces.

3. The way she acts not to care about you but seeing you in pain triggers a tears  upon her heavenly face.

4. The way she tries to act so tough there by ending up looking cute.

5. The way she does research on the boy they like better than CID Officers.

6. The way she cries over emotional movies.

7. The way she protects and cares about the family.

8. The way she hits you trying to make it hurt but you feel like a cotton ball hitting you.

9. The way she acts dominant in a relationship but ends up always being a soft one.

10. The way she keep records of all your bad habits and helps you to over come it.

11. The way she hugs you trying to make up for her mistake.

12. The way she tries so hard trying to impress her inlaws.

13. The way she gets angry and shouts at you over something you forgot to buy or forgets to do always.

14. The way she says, "What will you do without me" with a serious look.

15. The way she takes around 15 selfie and commands you to select one, although all looks the same...

16. The way she tries on every cloth in a shop and ends up buying nothing and you end up taking her to next garment shop.

17. The way she hates you when you are with your best girl-friend having a good talk.

18. The way she always tries to see with whom you are chatting with and whom you have added on your wechat and Facebook. Although this might also be a negative point 😂😂😂

19. The way she tries to blend in with your friends.

20. The way she tries to dig up your secrets from your best friends.

21. Finally the way she loves you without any conditions and tries to be your second mom.

If I have missed any points that might be needed to be added, please let me know la... happy reading... Hope it brought some smile on my valued readers.

Thursday, November 16, 2017

Dedicated to you

Rivers would eventually dry up,
Icy mountains would eventually melt down,
Moving wind will eventually stop
And sun would eventually lose its light
                       BUT
I will be there no matter what,
I will hold your hand, keep you safe.
I will be your shadow all the time
                        AND
Take you to the world never seen before;
In a world of love,
In a world of pleasure,
In a world of compassion
And most importantly in a perfect world of your happiness,
A perfect heaven I will create just for you.

Oh! What a beauty it was

The beauty that brightens every heart,
      Seems that it will never fade
                       BUT
          Now it's only a tale to tell

It was the glowing hope of Man
  And felt that it will never end
                        BUT
  Now it is all a part of a dream

The candle in the darkness it seems
              Once upon a time
                       BUT
           now it seems to go off

Oh! What a heart breaking beauty
It was between the mature ones
                      BUT
       Not it is old and faded

3 things that makes a relationship more beautiful and strong

I am not a professional when it comes to relationship but I do know that for any relationship to work, three main things should be there; trust, faith and most importantly commitment from both side.

1. Trust
Firstly make sure you don't play with this word. Its merely 5 letter word but it can destroy a well built relationship.

Always maintain and work towards making it more strong.

Don't let your partner ever doubt and clear the doubt before it does more damage later. Many relationship fails because we always keep what we heard and what we saw as a secret until we use it all at once. Just keep in mind that what we heard or saw may just be half truth and the main truth may be totally opposite.

If you feel that you are doubting your partner about something then feel free to clear it out. Sometimes staying quite does more damage than speaking up openly.
Trust your partner until you have a prove but make sure you have talked with your partner about your prove before blaming it all on your partner. Always listen to what your partner has to say on it.

If you trust your partner then you get a sense of relief that no matter what happens in life  your partner will always be there and support you and you know that you will support your partner till death takes you apart.

2. Faith
Some times you just have to have a faith when things go wrong and having a faith that the hard time your relationship is going through will make it strong and more beautiful helps to calm you down and reflect what is really the matter that need to be addressed.

A calm mind can find solution for any problems. Sometimes problms may not be in our hand to be resolved but having a faith that God will help if you help yourself does the trick and it may take time but eventually everything will fall back in its place the way it use to be and even more better than before.

Sometimes we might feel that we are doing all the work and other side isn't bothered at all to make the relationship strong but we never know because other partner may be doing their best to work it out. May be we are too concentrated on ourself that we fail to see how much someone else is doing.

Always acknowledge your partner when they try to make it better. Sometimes little things makes big difference in long run.
Having a faith that your partner loves you more than you and that you should love them even more makes the love competition even more wild and makes the love between the partners more strong and beautiful.

3. Commitment
The most important ingredient that is needed in a relationship would be commitment.  This 10 letter word makes all the difference when it comes to anything we do in life. Without commitment nothing will work well be it job, hobby, marriage, love and all.

No matter how good, sincere, lovely you maybe but if you don't have commitment towards your partner, any built relationship would eventually collapse.
Commitment can be compared to the foundation and we all know that without a good foundation eventually a nature cause will take place and everything will fall apart.

If you are committed to your partner and vice versa, there aren't no power to destroy your relationship. Even God himself cannot break it unless death makes its entry.

Commitment can be so strong that even the greatest force of nature cannot break it. 
With the above 3 mentioned ingredient of life, a relationship would sail freely and openly in an ocean of love and bliss.

If any more ingredient are there which you all reader thinks that is important then please share with me. I am not a professional when it comes to relationship but speaking out what I have observed and felt is important is being shared here... Thanks for going through it... 

Wednesday, November 15, 2017

If only I have known

If only I have known
The gift of hardwork
And the pain of failure
If only I have known
I would have studied my best
To overcome the pain of failure

If only I have known
Your space in my heart
The pain I would suffer without you,
If only I have known
Then when we had misunderstanding
I would have compromised

If only I have known
Your place in my life,
Without you a lonely life,
If only I have known
Then I would have apologised
For all the pain you been through

Demands you

Its really hard to bear this pain,
Feels like I am being sicken by it.
Every breath, every respire demands you
To be by my side forever.

God knows how I feels about you,
Even ocean full of ink, sky full of paper
Cannot fit all the feelings I have for you,
Its just that even I cannot express it.

My soul and body demands you,
And believe me I really love you
And I will always do,
For me you are prefect the way you are.

Monday, November 13, 2017

Love has a power to change someone

Ever since I joined College of Science and Technology, I have found myself with such an intelligent and confident friends to accompany myself. Almost everyone is talented in his or her own way. Among those friend, I met a friend who was different from all. He was cool and the best quality about him was his cool temper, I have never seen him angry nor he takes things to his heart. For him what ever people says doesn't matter, he is always happy and lost in his own happy world. May be that's why he was unique and I found him more open to everything.
He had a great personality but I never found him with a stable relationship, he would flirt around every girl he added on facebook. Some never replied to him while some found him open minded and started chatting with him.
I would always find him flirting around, once I jokingly told him that he was wasting his time flirting around and that this way he will never end up with the right person, but I never knew was what plan God has for him. Such flirting carried on for two more years and I was shocked how he can manage to flirt around with so many at once.
It was shocking to see that he finally stopped doing his flirting and was busy with calls, as usual I thought he was flirting until I found out that he was chatting with only one girl. You see it seems he has found himself a stable and fixed love of his life.
To be honest I never thought a guy who used to flirt so much that everyone would make fun of him would end up to be a committed lover at the end.
They are still going strong with their love although she has gone to Japan. He has been using net only to chat with her, I am still not sure the love of his life he met during flirting or is there a beautiful plot being plotted by the God for them to meet and find out that they are meant to be together.
I still finds it hard to believe how love can change someone from flirty to a committed lover...

Thursday, November 9, 2017

Beautiful Ghost of Haa

All though Haa Dzongkhag is blessed with one of the most spectacular view such as Ri_Sum, view of Mt. Jhomolhari frm Chelela, cold water fishery.

It also has a secret that's been there dwelling into every person's mind which has been passed onto by elders.

One such secret is the story of a beautiful girl who is said to be a beautiful ghost that one meets when one travels alone at late night near the army camp towards the Haa lower market.

It's said that one dies of illness or unknown sickness if one come across her while travelling late night alone. It always gives me a shiver deep down my spine when ever I reach that place. It's unknown whether it's a truth or some scary story to prevent children's from roaming late night. What ever be the case  but I find it still scary to think about walking from there at late night alone. Well let me share you a story that's been passed onto me by an aunt when I was a mere small boy.

" It happen one summer night with a clear moon sky, Mr. X (sorry I don't remember the name) was returning from his friends house alone drunk and singing, he was moving towards the lower market from his friend house which was near Imtrat hospital. When he reached near the junction which is above army camp (DemoCompany), he encountered a beautiful girl. She told him that she was scared to go alone as she has heard many scary story regarding that road towards lower market from army camp. Mr. X just smiled at her and said that he too was on his way to lower market, he couldn't see her face although it was a full moon night. It's said that she had a sweet voice and that she was talking as if they have known each other for long time, he was drunk so he even didn't care to ask her where she stays or from where she was coming.

They were talking and walking together till they reached the GUDHSS, there she told him that she has reached her home. He didn't even care to ask her whether she was living inside the school. He left her there and walked few meters and then when he looked back, she was still there this time facing towards the old tree right beside the bridge (I do remember seeing an old tree there when I was small). He was shocked when he saw that she had no legs but was floating above the road with her white kira and entered the old tree.

At once he got a shock and he ran towards the lower market, while reaching lower market he felt a sense of relief by hearing the dogs barking.  He at once rushed towards his house and share what happened to his wife and children, he became severely sick and died few days later.  Before he died, he had shared about a beautiful girl wearing a white kira with a black silky hair covering her face that had no legs that he met on his way and whom he saw entering the old tree."

There are many such stories but with same ghost and place but different persons. I am still not sure it's a truth or a mere scary story but one thing is for sure, I have spent my childhood days here at Haa and I still remember that old dead tree with a hole in its trunk that was right beside the bridge. Later it was removed and an old chorten resides just below the old tree's exact location. It is an old chorten made of mud and stone, not the new one made of cements. It's in the right side of the bridge. If you all ever come to Haa you can see it for yourself. # It's a story I heard when I was a small boy, I take no credit of it being a real one although we never know, it's being shared because such stories were what made our childhood days a beautiful one#

Thursday, November 2, 2017

Waiting

Dear future wife,

I am not sure why you are late, I am still holding onto you to come and show me that this life is worth living. I have seen many girls but I have never met the one for whom I would get a rush of adrenaline, I want to meet you for I know when I will meet you the sky will cry out of happiness in any season, the brother Sun would shine the brightest and sister Wind would blow to show me what you are the one ment for me.

I have had enough experience with temporary love that now I am scared that every girl that will enter my life to love me will be temporary and would leave one day.

They say that God has created one soul mate for every living being but I am still in delima whether I have met you or are we yet to meet each other. I am not sure how you would look like or how good heart you will be but I do pray that who ever comes in my life as a wife should consider my parents as her like I will consider hers as mine. I want you to be my otherhalf and I promise you I will create heaven right here on earth for you.

I don't care how you look as long as we are meant to be because ages later the kind of face and complexion you have wouldn't matter for it will be faded. The only thing that can withstand the power of time is love.

If by chance I ever fall out of love with you, I will always remember how we first time met and replay all those memories to make myself fall in love again.

Waiting is good after all...

It's beautiful when you notice that the one whom you love is right beside you... She has always been there for you although you never met her... she was there praying for you for she was praying for her future life partner... she has been loving you although you never met her but one fine day you will meet her and the whole world will look so beautiful with all the flaws that once you thought was the ugly side of the world... She will show you why all those wrong lover you met on the way was some lessons to be learned to apply when you meet the real love and soul mate of you in near future.

Believe me she will heal all those scars you have been hiding... You won't have to look like THIS nor like THAT, for her you would be perfect the way you are...

She will show you that she is worth hoping for and waiting for... She will shower you will love and concern as vast as her world. You won't feel the pinch of this world for she would be there guiding you with her love...

Dear brothers please don't compromise in life... Don't be in hurry too for you might regret in near future why u didn't wait for her to come into your life rather than going for wrong ones...

Wednesday, October 25, 2017

Missing my ex Druk 11000

I really miss those days when my love... Druk 11000 was only Nu.60. Those were the best memories of my life. Later it cost Nu.70, the cost was in my budget so with pain in my poor pocket I still went for her. She was what kept me occupied from all this fake world. Recently she broke my heart when it costed Nu.80. My poor pocket couldn't bear it and had to go for second love Miss Rockbee. She was good but unlike my ex she wasn't that good yet she was only Nu.20 per peck so, it was good for my poor pocket.

I went to Paro from Haa just to refresh myself and I convinced myself to go for my ex last time there at Paro. I went in a bar, saw her there staring at me as if to tell me how much she missed me. I couldn't resist the temptation and so as planned went for her for last time. It would be my last farewell to her. We were face to face njoying each others company for last time. It was heart breaking to bit farewell but what broke and shattered my heart was when the bar owner said it was Nu.100 per Druk 11000. It seems now she is really out of my league. Miss u my love...

#I got a good response on tcp#so thought of posting it here...

Thursday, September 28, 2017

What is love?

I have always asked myself this question when ever I could feel the warmth feeling when ever I see her around.

:-A love is a silly feeling which has no destination, gets stronger day by day when you are far but when too close for too long fades away...


Regret

Sometimes one's action hurts alot,
Words once said can't be taken back.

I am ashamed of what I said to thee,
Thee may have forgiven me fully
But thee always reminds me of my mistake,
Although you don't say it, I feel it.

How I wish I didn't say that to thee,
We would still be friends I guess.
We are in same room yet so separated,
Thousand oceans and million mountains lay between us...

   

Tuesday, July 11, 2017

It's you

Don't let the world define you...

Don't let yourself change because of it...

It's you and your character that defines you not what the world thinks or sees about you...

You are and have always been a good person so don't let the cruelty of world change you...

Dedicated to NiNi my stupid cat

 It was suppose to be few weeks apart, Yet its nearly 2 months now. Worried sick I am thinking about you. I hope our good neighbours are tre...