I promise you (Chapter 4... The final chapter)

Tshering pretends to cough just to make his presence known to Pema, she was still lost in her though why see always  ends up seeing that little boy.

"Hello, remember me. I am Tshering," he said softly. As she looks up to see who he was, she nearly shouts out of surprise, "Azai wai."

He just laughts and brings forth his hand in a gesture to handshake. Pema slowly corrects herself up with an apology.

"You haven't changed a bit,  same all hairstyle, still weird looking and lost in her own dreamy world," he says with a smile on his face.

For a moment she touches her hair and tries to remember her hairstyle at college time. She hardly remembers what types of hairstyle she used to keep those days.

"Really! You still remembers my old hairstyle? It seems someone was keeping eye on me." She says laughingly. As she moves her hand over to cover her mouth, she remembers about the chocolate she bought and hands them over to him.

"What's this?" He questions.

"Its for your little friend who always chases me around," she says with a smile.

"My little friend? Huh... sorry I didn't get you," Tshering said with a surprise tone.

She just looks at him and waits for him to change his statement but finds him totally confused by her statement. Then she continues " I mean the small boy whom you introduced once during college farewell picnic, wait... I have saved that photo in my phone from laptop."

As she shows him the picture, a silent tear falls from his eyes, he gets angry and shouts at her, "I never knew you would make fun of someone who is dead."

On hearing that Pema suddenly moves back and explains him that she has really seen that little boy 3 times already at Haa. She then begs him to tell her what actually happened and how did that little boy died.

Tshering looks at Pema and thinks for a moment before he says, " ok! Then listen. Do you remember after our last exam paper we were suppose to meet near the water tank." She nods and says, "yes I do."

He continues,"when I was waiting for you near the water tank, I received a call from my friend sonam. He called me urgently to come to hospital as his son wanted to see me."

"Ok and then,"she asks him with full attention.

"Well you see, he was suffering from brain tumor and although he was successfully operated, due to some unknown reason he still suffered from severe migraine. No one knew how long he would live and I have known him since I became his father's friend long time ago.

He was so fond of me and always called me as atta. I felt so happy to have a little brother and I would always take time to go and visit him everytime I get a chance. I even brought him at our farewell picnic as he wanted to experience college picnic.

Well when I reached at hospital, he was already shifted to ICU, I couldn't go and meet him so I waited outside the ICU for whole night. At around 3 am, he came to sense and was asking for me, I went inside with a smile I forged upon myself and acted as if nothing was wrong.

He was there still writing his diary, I wonder what he writes there.

He would share all his secrets with me and I told him that there is one last secret I didn't share with him. Although he was in pain he looked at me with a smile and told me, "Its about love right brother."

I was shocked and he kept on smiling and asked me to show him the picture of the person I love. So I took my phone out and showed him your picture. He was very happy and told me that he remembers meeting you at the picnic. He told me," I will call her mathang and brother I will help you get her love."

Although he was sick and he should be worried about himself but he was worried about my love life and wanted to help. I thought of calling you but my phone was out of battery. He wanted to meet you once more but I couldn't come to college to ask you for his condition kept detorating and I was scared that the few moment he have would be my last moment with him. He asked me to bring him a bottle of water and told me to take my own time as he opens his diary to scribble down some words.

When I came back with a bottle of water, I saw my friend crying loudly and his wife was there at the corner lifeless without any emotions, she was neither crying nor shouting. I knew something must have happened and when I rushed near his bed, he was still hugging my phone and he was lifeless. I didn't know what just happened, I couldn't even cry nor shout like his father. I lost the most loved person in my life, I lost my brother. I remembered his last word. "I will call her mathang and brother I will help you get her love."


 I had to stay at his house to help with the rituals. It took nearly a week to complete all the works and when I returned back to college to meet you, my friend told me that you left few hours ago with your parents.

In the process of helping my little brother's death rituals, I misplaced my phone and ended up losing all the contacts I had with you.

As he was still telling the story, Pema couldn't bear it and started crying, she begged him sorry and request him to share her his name.

He couldn't utter his name at first and then after few seconds Tshering said, "Sonam T Dorji, he was a very good boy and very intelligent and he didn't deserve to die so early, he had lots to see in this world. God wasn't fair... God wasn't fair.." He started crying with tears all over his face.

Pema just hugged him and said,"I am not lieing but I really saw him and everytime I saw him, I ended up meeting with you. Now I think I know the reason. He is full filling his promise to you. He said he would help you right, well he is really helping you to meet me."

As Tshering hears this, he just smiles at her with tears on his eyes and requests Pema to show him where he is right now. Pema hesitately points at a house and tells him that she saw him going there. To her astonishment, Tshering looked at her and then goes into that building. Pema also follows him, Tshering goes directly to house no 7 and knocks, Pema cautiously warns Tshering that she only saw that little boy going into the building, which floor, which room she had no idea.

As both of them waits for the door to unlock, a strange cool breeze flows through their body. Pema shivers while Tshering smiles and says, "I know brother, you are trying to make your presence known to us, its ok."

As an when he finishes saying that, the door unlocks and Tshering smiles at the woman who just opens the door, it's non other than the mother of Sonam T Dorji. She smiles back and looks at Pema and hugs hers.

Still unsure what just happened, Pema hesitates to say anything.  Tshering clears his throat and says,"I didn't know you two got transferred to Haa, where is your husband?" Someone just comes out of the kitchen, it's Tshering's friend Sonam.

Sonam also hugs Pema and smiles as he looks back on the picture of his son. "My son, you did it, your promise has been fullfilled," Sonam cries out of happiness.

Sonam continues,"... before you two ask me any question, I want both of you to refer this diary of my son, look at the last page."

When they both opens the last page of the diary, they gets the shock of their life. It reads, "I may leave this body but I promise I will bring my brother and mathang together no matter what, even if it means for me to come back from death, I will do it. Until they are together I won't give up."

Pema gets shiver all over her body, Tshering after hearing his lost brothers last words, fills with sadness and cries out aloud.

Pema and Tshering shares them all the incident that occurred till now and promise them that their son's last wish won't be in vain.

Keeping all the differences aside, Tshering once more proposes Pema, promising to love her even after death. Pema already went through the pain of losing him and she knew that he was the one for her.

As a token of love towards his brother, Tshering laminates his brothers last word and keeps it in his house. Pema prays every day to God to let her have Sonam T Dorji as her son so that she can repay her gratitude to him.

#I hope I did a fair justice to a story# Thank you...

I promise you (Chapter 3)

As Tshering receives the chit, Pema without saying any words walks directly towards the academic block. She neither looks back nor greets anyone she meets on the way. It is unusual for her to act so weird when she is mostly talkative among the cstians. Tshering reads the chit slowly to himself,

"Dear Tshering,

I am not sure how to say it but since it came to this situation, I have no other option but to tell you the truth.

We have known each other from highschool, ended up in same college and now we are nearly completing our course. I must say you have been one of the best person I ever met in my life, you always hold me when even I couldn't hold myself up.

I have been in countless relationships and it feels akward to see you fall for me, I ain't the right girl for you. I am sorry I can't accept your proposal, I know I will regret later about it  but for now lets  do our exam well.

I know it will be hard for you to accept this but sorry I can't accept it, I don't want to lose you. I have lost every person I ever loved.

If for some reason we break up then I will lose you like others. I don't want that to happen, I hope you would understand.

With love
Pema      "

His eyes gets filled with tears, still he tries to smile and neatly folds back the letter and puts it in his wallet.

That letter was like a big blow in his loving heart, he acted normal and hurried to the academic block as it was time for the first period. As he passes by her class, he glances into her class just to find that Pema was already looking at him. He just smiled and pretended as if nothing happened few minutes ago.

Pema could tell that he was hurt, she being the reason, she made up her mind to not meet him before the semester exam ends. Just a week to go for their final semester exam, they both anonymously thought of not seeing each other would be a good decision before the end semester examination.

As usual Pema went to library to study and Tshering went to lab to study. Finally exam ended with both of them not seeing each other for about 3 weeks now.

Since it was few precious last day at college, all the department organised their own way to bit farewell to the final years. Pema was busy with her own department gathering and Tshering too was engaged with the farewell gathering.

It was party all night, even the shyest person came out to live the last moment of college life with songs and dances. Both of them couldn't meet each other that night.

Next morning Tshering requested his friend Dema to call Pema and request her to come meet him near the water tank. As Tshering waits patiently, he receives a call from his friend urgently telling him to come to Phuentsholing hospital as his friend's son wants to see him before he dies.

Tshering was so much attached with his friend's son that he shed tears on the spot and ran towards the gate, he was completely blank to even notice that Pema just smiled at him and waved at him.

Pema was shocked to see that he rushed towards the gate with eyes full of tears and then stopped a taxi and went away. She couldnt believe what just happened. It was the last time she saw Tshering at college. She tried to call his cellphone but all in vain, his phone was switched off.

As she continues to think about what happened that day 7 years ago, she didnt even notice that she has reached her aunt's house.

She tried to lighten herself up, smiled and knocked the door.

As she awaits for the door to open, at the corner of her eyes she feels as if she saw a small boy running away behind the house. Her reflex were quick to response and before she could tell, she was following that image behind the house.

As she reaches at the back of the house, she finds nobody there. She still feels as if that boy is around and keeps on looking around the house. She didn't even notice that she was acting weird in front of her neighbours.

But out of blue, she knew that she would meet Tshering again as every time she met that little boy, she met Tshering.
She wasn't wrong, Tshering's apartment was just few blocks away from her aunt's house. He was on his way towards his apartment, as Pema sits there on a wooden log chair, Tshering sees her and comes directly towards her.

I promise you (Chapter 2)

Her aunt gets out of the car and helps her load her luggage in the car, all Pema can do was smile back at her aunt and get inside the car. She couldn't sum up the courage to ask her aunt to wait for few minutes for her to talk with Tshering. But again she knew that she doesn't have the right to talk with him after rejecting him for no concrete reasons.

As her aunt starts the car, both Pema and Tshering locks their eye upon each other, Tshering smiles and waves towards her, she feels a deep pain in her heart.

She felt as if for the second time she was losing him. All she could do was just look back at Tshering without showing any emotions.

Her aunt's house was merely 10 minutes drive away yet she felt like it took them nearly an  hour to get there. This was her second time at Haa and she was happy and sad at the same moment.

Happy to be able to meet him and she has a hope of seeing him again. She just got transferred from Phuentsholing. She came with a hope of finding out her chilhood memory of Haa and to be independent.

She was sad with her lack of courage although Tshering made his move first. Although he smiled and waved at her, she didnt even gave a simple gesture of seeing him. She felt how akward he must have felt to not received any gesture from her.

As she sits hear bukhari with a hot cup of suja, she still thinks about what he has been doing all this time, why didnt he even try to contact her for last 7 years.

Was that small boy his son or brother?

Was that lady his wife?

Why did that small boy called her  mathang?

Does he still have feelings for her?

Does he still remembers her like the way she do?...

As many questions kept poping up in her mind, she shook her head again and again.

Her aunt just looked at her and said, "Are you tired? Would you like to sleep a little?"

She just smiled back and said,"I am fine Aanii."

As her aunt shared her stories about how small Pema was when she first came to Haa, Pema was still thinking about what happened 7 years ago.

After his proposal, she didn't get out of her house for next 3 days and neither he asked about it. When they met after 4 days, she just gave him a small chit.

She was not brave enough to express her reason why she can't accept him. So, she wrote a chit explaining the reasons why she can't accept it.

She still remembers those words she used in the letter as she sips down every bit of suja slowly.

As she plans to open her laptop and watch some korean series, the face of the little boy flashes upon her. She is still not sure who he was and why he called her mathang.

She was sure that Tshering has no brother, the identity of the small boy still remained unsolved in her little confused world.

Suddenly she remembers something and she flips around the old pictures in her laptop, as she goes over every photo. She notices a small boy resembling the small boy she met at bus booking.

It was the picture of farewell college picnic, that small boy was sitting next to Tshering, smiling as the photo was taken. Although he was with Tshering in the photo, she doesn't remember anything about him.

As she tries harder to rememeber, she gets a vivid memory of meeting that boy while she was calling Tshering for some work at college picnic.

Finally she concludes in her mind that maybe he is related to Tshering and that the little boy knows her because Tshering might have shared him about her. But she was still wondering why that little boy called her as mathang.

Next day she went to Haa Dzongkhag and gave her appointment letter to the office, luckily the HRO told her to join the next day and take today as a break. On her way back home, she came across the same small boy waving at her from a shop.

At once she recognised him and rushed into the shop only to find that he wasn't there. She thought that she was thinking about that little boy so much, her imagination was taking the troll on her brain. With a confused and shocked state, as she comes out of that shop, she once again meets Tshering, this time near the shop.

It was purely coincidence she thought, coincidence of meeting him everytime she sees that little boy. As usual she couldn't face him and just looked the opposite direction and headed towards the last shop. As she looked back, she saw that he was still there looking at her in disbelieve.

"He must have felt bad, neglected and I am sure he knows the reason why I can't face him,"she said to herself while looking at him after few blocks down the way. As she reached the last shop, she enters there just to escape from his view.

Although she  had no plan to buy anything in the shop, she looked around and ends up buying few bar of chocolates in hope to meeting that little boy and give him. As she was paying the shopkeeper, she felt a sudden gush of cold air on her hand and face. She looked up hoping to see a fan but ended up seeing nothing there.

As she came out of the shop, she looks around to see if Tshering was there. Lucky he was long gone, as she starts to move towards her aunt house,she comes  across the bus station where she met that little boy and Tshering. She again taps back into her memory.

It was raining very heavily that day when Tshering was there waiting for her near the college gate, he smiles at Pema, hoping  to get a reply after waiting for 3 days. He sees that she is feeling very akward and notices it in the way she walks and looks down at the road while handing him a small chit.

I promise you (Chapter 1)

Cold winter with its own blessing and curse blew over the small town of Haa. Hardly any one was noticeable in and around Haa town. Pema with all her luggage just arrived in a bus from Phuentsholing.

With a smile on her face, doubt in her heart she just unloaded the luggage from the bus. As she looks around to see her aunt, a small boy with a cute smile comes near her and wishes her,  "Mathang nan aopha mo."

She gets the shock of her life.

Still unable to digest his words, she just smiles back and says, "Mathang? Ebi mathang ya... Jang mangi na wai."

The small boy just smiles and runs away behind a car where a man is patiently waiting in a car. As she tries to look closely who the man was, a soft voice with a sweet breeze of tone calls from behind her, "Hey! Tshering, come out and help me with this luggage. "

To her astonishment, she saw her childhood friend Tshering coming out of the car, he just smiled at her and went to help the lady who was calling him.

Thousand thoughts ran into her mind, the flash back occurs...

She still remembers the day when he kneeled down and proposed her after being friends for nearly a 7 years. She found herself in a situation where she had to choose between losing him forever or being with him in a new relationship.

She never thought about being more than a bestfriend to him, for he has seen her cry over the breakups for years and always found him to be a consoler for her.

She has been in so many relationships  that she felt awkward to accept or reject his proposal.

He was still on his knees with a red rose and a spark in his eyes. His words were so heavy to digest, he kept on saying why he loved her and why he never found any girl worth going for.

She just smiled at him and asked him for few days time to think over it. He was happy beyond words. He suddenly shouted and jumped  up while tried to control his emotion before saying, "You can take all the time you need, I will be there just for you."

As she looks at him, helping that lady, she whispers to herself, "He hasn't changed a bit, same all Tshering with his fake smile and trying to act cool."

Luaggage was quite heavy, she saw Tshering was having a hard time carrying it towards his car yet he acted as if he was strong.

As he came near her, the same old feelings rushed in, making her feel awkward again to face him after 7 years gap.

She still don't remember how they ended up being so apart. All she remembers was seeing him in tears and after that he just vanished from her life.

She searched him everywhere but no one knew of his whereabout. That day she lost one of the most loved person in her life, she felt lost, alone, uncomplete and most of all she lost a person who has always been there in her ups and downs. She always found him by her side, she regreted for not accepting his proposal.

As he keeps on helping that lady, she just can't believe he is right there in front of her eye.

She felt that this was the best moment to share him what she felt after losing him for last 7 years. As she goes near him, she hears a honk of a car. There she sees her aunt smiling with all her 32 teeth towards her.

A beauty worth dieing for

As the sun slowly hide himself behind a curtain of cloud,
The gush of wind blew over slowly introducing her scent.
Sun was compareless to the brightness she possessed.
The scent so sharp melted down my heart.
Those silky yellow hair moved on its own,
Enchanting all around it to its beauty.

Even the beauty of winter stars were compareless,
Even the beauty of autumn season over the decidious forest were compareless,
To the beauty she was born with.
A beauty solely owned to conqure the heart of every man it encounters.
A beauty worth dieing for.

Her one stare could freeze you in that moment,
Her one look can stop your heart beat,
The way she moves makes you stare at her.
The way she moves her finger through her hair,
You can see it as if you are in a slow motion movie.
There is beauty in everything she does.

And if you ever see someone like her,
A girl of beauty worth dieing for,
A girl whose every moves makes you amazed,
My dear brother, you better go for check up,
Chances are there you are losing it all.
Losing your sense of reality...😂😂😂

Sketched by Kinley Norbu (aka Dpo)

Loving the wrong girl

So lost in her mesmerising beauty,
I lay as a puppet in her hand.
Her small reactions meant a world to me.
Loving the wrong girl made me blind.

Blinded to see what actually was happening.
I was being a mere puppet in her hand.
Little did I know how my friends were feeling.
They knew she was playing with me.

They advised me about my wrong choice,
But I was blinded by my own love towards her.
I was just a fool following my own nightmare.
Nightmare I was yet to be introduced with.

Never knew when I became addicted to her.
I started giving her more important,
I hardly gave my friends any time.
I hardly thought about anything else than about her.

Her likes and dislike became mine,
Her happiness became my goal,
She was like a poisoned red wine,
Destroying me by every sip I take of it.

I was losing myself in the process of loving her.
I was sacrificing more than I was gaining out of it.
I was doing it all for i was scared of losing her,
Although I was the only one who was trying to keep it going.

I ended up being exhausted in the relationship.
I have bargin in more than I can take.
It started hampering my academic life.
I can hardly digest exam were near.

It was class 12 examination,
A turning point in my life,
This exam would decide where I would be,
College or be a highschool dropout in life.

Lost between love and career I was,
Decision was needed to be made from my side.
A nightmare was lurking just behind 1 month.
A nightmare of deciding my life with examination.

When the final time comes even our shadow leaves us behind,
She left me for someone who had a job.
She left her school life to get married.
I was left here wondering what a fool I was.

Since time was less I did my best,
I ended up getting just passed.
The nightmare falled upon me,
The nightmare of being nobody in future.

Felt like a plastic bag on a windy day,
Blown away without any known destination.
Seeing my friends go to colleges far away,
Made me sad for I knew I deserved to be with them.

Blessed I was with such a loving family,
They saw a dream for me which I had to conqure.
Although it was hard for my family budget,
I was enrolled in a private school.

This time I was convinced I needed to study hard,
One year at private school was a second chance I got.
A chance to prove myself my worth.
A chance to conqure the dream.

A long awaited dream finally became real.
When I was selected for CST.
Hardwork works like magic if you do it.
A year worth of hardwork beared its fruit.

I never learned how to let it go,
I never knew how to do it again,
I never thought I would also be one.
Now I suffer from Philophobia.

A beautiful word to express,
Express the fear of being in love again.

                            Thank you...

I can see it all

I can see how you are feeling,
Grasping those hairs of yours,
Bitting those lips of yours,
Thousand words running in your mind.
Trying your best to talk with him.

For sadly he seems too damnless,
He has no idea about what you feel.
It's a shame for him not to know.
How much he mean to you.
For he is lucky and unlucky at the same time.

Her reply

I am not sure why you love,
When you know that you will get hurt,
Is it worth going for,
Wasting both time and money.
For just a short happy moment.

I don't know why you love,
For all it gives in return is pain,
Everlasting sorrow and regret.
It takes more than it gives
For a few moments of happiness.

Firstly do what you came to do,
Than may be later go for love.
When one has  job and status,
One can get the one you love.
Why waste your time for now.

I am not saying you not to love,
All I am saying is, its not the right time.
So let's study hard and build out future.
A future both of us will be proud of.
Lets work towards it pintoo.

Frankly saying I am afraid of being in love,
The memory of past still haunts me,
I have known you well to judge you,
You deserve the best one out there,
I have past experience that won't let me.

I am not sure how you will react,
For all I have is a sincere apology;
An apology to try to make up,
An apology I owe you for replying late.
An apology for leaving you where you are now.

If we are meant to be in future,
I will be the luckiest girl out there.
If our path ever comes across each other,
Please don't hesitate to hug me.
For no one has and will ever come so close to me as you.

I still remember the first time I saw you,
You were there near the gate all wet,
Both of us were late for assembly.
I felt a relief that I wasn't alone that day.
We both got a punishment to cut grass,

I knew that you liked me.
I am sorry for not letting you know.
I knew from the very beginning you liked me.
My friend Pema told me about you.
I was scared of being in love again.

I am glad I met someone like you.
The way you cheered me up after every unit test,
Made me feel how lucky I was to have you.
I am surely blessed to have met you.
Thank you for always being there.

By the time you will receive this,
I would be gone by then.
I will pray for our path to cross.
I will pray that your dream comes true.
I will pray that our karma let us Unite.

Love

A word "love" itself is a key,
Key for happiness, sorrow, war and peace.
Love is an uncontrollable feeling
Between two person of any race.

It means to share our happiness,
And divide our sorrowness.
Love doesn't mean to hurt
But means to show our loving heart.

It can create a nice friendship,
And also can destroy a friendship.
It makes us to share our feeling,
And also makes us to be friendly.

A love can join two heart together,
and also can create peace and war.
Love is an uncontrollable feeling,
Which can occur at any given time.

She made a difference in my world

It was raining very heavily that time
When I was waiting for my friend,
It was getting late for school.
So when my friend came, we ran before I collided.

Collided with a girl so beautiful,
She apologised although it was my fault.
Her voice pierced through my heart,
Rang the bell of so long dead stone heart.

I couldnot stop staring at her although I was running.
Tried my best to capture her whole image.
Seeing her in the same uniform as I am wearing,
Gave me a hope of finding her and meeting her again.

For the second time I saw her next day in a shop.
All I knew was that  I was tempted to go near her,
Hear those heavenly voice again from the angel like her.
It felt warmth deep within my body.

To my astonishment, my classmate felt my weird behaviour.
Came close to me and gave me a look I still remember now.
I dragged her towards the corner of the shop,
Begged her to share me about her new friend.

For the third time we met near the school gate,
This time she was all alone heading towards school.
I too was alone, for we both were late for the assembly.
Later both of us were called to principal office.

Since that incident we have known each other,
Smiled at each other when ever our path crosses by,
I skipped heart beat every time she smiled my way,
Stupid me wants to be more than mere friend to her.

Now that we become familiar to each other,
I would always find a reason  to talk with her.
Slowly we became close to each other.
But fate did not like our closeness.

She wanted only friends but not boyfriend,
So I couldn't express my love towards her.
Time flew by keeping myself loaded with all those love for her.
We became best friend within two years.

Finally when I gathered all the guts to propose her,
It was too late for her to give any reply to me.
Her father got transferred to another Dzongkhag.
I felt so lost that I could hardly believe it.

The thought of being alone to school scared me,
I have became so fond of her that I could hardly bear her absence.
But all I can do was smile at her for her new beginning of life.
It hurts but have to let her go for my own good.

I am not sure how I will handle this situation,
I am not sure how to bid her farewell,
I am not sure will this be our last meeting,
I am not sure will we ever keep in contact hence forth.

All I know is that she made a difference in my world,
All I know is that love can be so painful sometimes.
Unsaid love and untreated wounds will take time to heal.
For now I have long night to think about what to do next.

(It's said that we will never forget our first love but in my case my second uncompleted love made a greater impact on my life.)

I hate it when

I hate it when I am afraid,
Afraid to do what I like.

I hate it when I lose confident,
Lose confident in our love.

I hated it when you left me,
Left me all alone in this town.

I hate it when you lie to me,
Lie to me about your promise.

I hate it when you speak to me,
Speak to me in mobile form far place.

I hate all the above mentioned reasons,
Yet I still love you for you are the one for me.